A Page from Niha’s life – Digital Diaries – 01

When a bad day hits and you find no rescue and a small conversation saves your day.

Here’s what happened…

There was a sudden outburst after too many thoughts poured in, I initially thought I was overthinking but I couldn’t control or align myself and tears flowed through. Some days are pretty hard, despite having a terrible time thinking through, a small conversation with my brother makes me realise that maturity and empathy don’t come with age. I have seen people who are old enough and do not understand or empathise with others. This little one, without me saying anything to him, came up to me and understood what I was going through and randomly started a conversation and said “Didi, I saw this quote today, wait lemme show you”. (He calls me ‘didi’ which refers to older sister in our mother tongue) . I was in no mood to see the quote or do anything but still heard it out, he read “Nobody is worth crying for and those that are worth it will not make you cry”. I don’t know how he relates to what I feel. I guess that’s some sibling connection we are gifted with. That quote made me feel a tad better. He was also sweet enough to share and listen to some of my favourite songs with me, which he seldom does. Like, we listened to some good songs that we both liked and he tried to distract me with some Instagram hacks and helped me select some nice pictures of myself just to make me feel good. I am not sure if he did all this intentionally or if it came out naturally to him. He was sweet enough to stay with me until I was okay and later reacted like it was nothing and carried on with his work.

I always knew my younger brother was the kindest person as I have seen him cry so badly and express his emotions when his pet cat passed away. He couldn’t stop crying that morning. He is seldom attached to anything, when he does, he is true to it. We fight, irritate each other so much, sometimes beat each other up and complain to mom on most days but I know now, that he loves me too( He would never accept that) and I do have some moments where no matter what, I would never give up on him and my sister. Being his elder sister, I often felt I should be the responsible one and he was the usual chill person. Today, I could see he was ageing, more understanding and becoming a true gentleman. Roles reversed. I am glad that I have him around. It’s not siblings day today and nothing special too but as rarely as I appreciate my brother, this gesture of him will be remembered forever in my life ( at least digitally engraved :P).

This blog is in appreciation to all those people who understand unsaid words and make others feel better. The world needs people like you. More often, we think people get okay if they are left alone for some time. I don’t think that’s true. It really requires some time, one’s understanding and some good tricks (if you got them) that align with the likes of the person feeling bad in here.

Sharing another quote with you all– Here it is, “Anyone can make you smile, many can make you cry, but it takes some special people with superpowers in your life to make you smile with tears in your eyes”, I’m grateful to have mine.

P.S to my bro: This boy never reads anything I write. He says”You can never say or write anything short and I don’t have time for your long paragraphs”. Just in case, if you read this, never let me know or call it ‘cringe’. I still hate you for not sharing Dahi puri with me last month. Will deal with our task accounts with you later. I agree, I am lucky to have you ( you should agree that you are lucky to have me too!!!)